What do you think about yourself? How do you see yourself when you look in the mirror? What thoughts roll through your mind most often? Do you like who you are? Do you like how you look? Do you believe in yourself?
I’ve struggled with these questions in my life. After dissecting my thoughts, the core of my struggle was the feeling of being unloved.
Of course, receiving love from others is essential. However, if you don’t accept who you are first, it can lead to not being able to love yourself and the chain reaction begins. Others have a hard time being around you.
I struggle with letting people “in” as they say. Letting people see who I am out of fear of rejection, embarrassment, and criticism. Yet, I began to recognize these feelings were coming from within. Too often, I reject myself, am embarrassed by my own failures, and criticize my own judgments or behaviors (even when not warranted).
This habit is not as bad as it was in my mid-twenties. But now, as I travel through my mid-thirties, I still need improvement. I figure the best way to kill a giant is to face him head-on. Maybe you need to as well. I wonder if it would be weird to look in the mirror and say, “I love you.”
Eric Christopher Jackson