The Dark Light Series grew from internal struggles I had growing up. I had to accept my faith; I had to accept that not everyone else was going to accept my faith. I also had my own questions and doubts. I really did not know how to handle what I was feeling and experiencing.
Once I started college, much later in life, I was old enough to understand and explain who I am, what I believe, and why I believe it.
However, the problem was I still could not talk to many people about Christ without being pigeon-holed or feeling out of place. I needed a place where I could express myself freely, say what I wanted to say, without fear of rejection or ridicule. Maybe, in silence, people could hear me.
Hence, this Series was born. I needed to practice my control of strobe lights for a class project and come up with an original concept for a series of photographs. I knew I wanted to use a single light to represent the presence of God. The extra negative space would also serve as a placement for Him.
I am not an emotional person. My feelings are kept internally. Still, for this series, I attempted to show glimpses of different emotions as genuinely as I could.
Once I began to edit the scenes, the story of my life became evident. I was a man hiding from God, hiding from the light in the darkness. Even when I stepped into the light, my life was never perfect, and I felt alone.
Over time, I learned how to not be ashamed of my faith in God. I am still reminding myself to remain calm in the midst of the normal challenges of life.
Just because things go wrong does not mean God doesn’t love me anymore.
– Eric Christopher Jackson
“I tried to hide from Him to go my own way, but He never leaves; His Spirit is within me.”
“I feel reverence for Him as I stand in His presence. I get strength from Him to move forward.”
“When I’m not running away from God and have decided to submit (surrender) to His will, I am calm, confident, even if things around me are falling apart.”
“I have never seen Jesus’ face; I only imagine if I did, all I would see is intense light.”
“Sometimes I cry out to God, pleading, feeling like I’m not heard…and He listens to every word.”
“When my pain is exhausted, I come to realize God has been working in and through my life, though He felt so far away. He is still here.”
“I am revived when I remember and hold on to the fact that Jesus will never leave me.”
“When I am not worried, stressed about the obstacles I face, I can listen clearly to the Holy Spirit’s voice guiding me on where to go next.”
“Doubt returns when I don’t feel Him near me. Is He still there? Always.”
“I am a child of God. I am free to be me.”
“I am surrounded by God’s love. The greatest assurance of His existence is the Holy Spirit living within me.”